Do you believe in light?#
During dinner last night, my adorable little niece asked me, "Uncle, do you like Ultraman? Here, take this." She handed me a pià ji card. Maybe in my niece's world, boys and Ultraman are equivalent.
I couldn't type out the word and realized that pià ji is probably a dialect from the northeast. I looked it up online and it turns out to be true. Interestingly, some people say that it is the transliteration of Menko (めんこ，"face") in Japanese. I checked Wikipedia and found that Menko is a popular card game in Japan since the Edo period. The gameplay of pià ji is similar, so it might be a game culture spread during the Japanese colonial period.
I was obsessed with collecting these game cards during my childhood, maybe for the same reason that anime fans collect figurines now. It seems that even children understand life. The carefree nature of childhood may be the most direct interpretation of a child's love for life.
When I was a child, I used to laugh a lot, and often laughed loudly, which easily lightened the atmosphere in the classroom. I would often need someone to remind me, "Stop laughing" or "What are you laughing at..." But since I entered university, there have been fewer and fewer things that can make me laugh. Almost nothing makes me particularly happy anymore, and life seems to have become mundane. Perhaps this is the regret of adulthood...
I have made many efforts to resist the numbness of life: taking photos in my free time, reading books, meeting old friends, and so on, trying to make life more colorful. But I know that the true face of life is not like this. Life is the exploration of the mystery of each individual's existence, and it has the ability to bring endless joy to everyone. It is not meant for us to just get by. Although I have lost the innocence of childhood, everyone in this society can still have genuine laughter from the heart. This is my expectation for life, in other words, I believe in light.
Old Friends#
Last night, I received shocking news. My best friend has a boyfriend now! How wonderful... I sincerely wish her happiness!!!
Previously, I never thought the term "boyfriend" would be associated with her, hhh (forgive me...). Maybe it was because the news came suddenly, my brain couldn't process it. Almost immediately, a question that I had never thought about popped up: Will my relationship with her affect her relationship with her boyfriend? Actually, thinking like this is wrong. It is a thought of insecurity and a lack of trust in our friendship over the years.
Upon hearing the news of my friend's relationship, I also wondered when my own love would come. I also want a sweet romance... But before entering a relationship, we must first ask ourselves why we want to be in one. It may be because we yearn for the unknown curiosity (or the happiness of the present senses), we tend to approach a state of acquisition. This state of approaching acquisition is called love. However, being in a relationship requires courage. Although it originates from our expectations and longing for life, it is essentially a breakthrough in our original state of life. In summary, love is a brave attempt to pursue the unknown.
Finally, I want to share a song by Eason. May you find your own happiness.
Today I Will Only Do One Thing
I realized that there is always too little space in this world
So I spend a day controlling all my time
I realized that there is always too much calculation in this world
So I spend a day contemplating all the reasons
Disappearing too quickly, catching too little
So I spend a day feeling that everything is love
In this vast sea of people
There are so many wanderings and cover-ups
Everyone is searching for love
There are so many struggles and competitions
The more I feel, the less love remains
Slowly cooperating to create new poems
Quietly napping together in bed
Discovering the weariness and dearness brought by time
With various disasters and unexpected events
That's why I will strive to continue being able to love
Slowly moving towards tomorrow
Quietly reminiscing about yesterday
Deciding to believe in love today
Unfolding the wrinkles and calling back youth
That's why I like to spend a day feeling that everything is love
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I realized that there is always too little depth in this world
So I spend a day changing all my habits
I realized that there are always too many mysteries in this world
So I spend a day having all the luck
Disappearing too quickly, catching too little
So I spend a day feeling that everything is love
In this vast sea of people
There are so many wanderings and concealments
Everyone is searching for love
There are so many struggles and competitions
The more I feel, the less love remains
Singing karaoke together slowly
Quietly playing online games together
Discovering the weariness and dearness brought by time
With various disasters and unexpected events
That's why I will strive to continue being able to love
Slowly moving towards tomorrow
Quietly reminiscing about yesterday
Deciding to believe in love today
Unfolding the wrinkles and calling back youth
That's why I like to spend a day feeling that everything is love
Woo yeah, I like to spend a day feeling that everything is love with you